It's been awhile

So I was doing really well at keeping this blog pretty updated for a little while. Then, well, I just stopped for lots of reasons. Mostly because I just didn't know what to make of life and everything that has happened.

Really, all I want to touch on is the fact that I will be home, aka Utah, in 18 days. I am so excited. I miss my kiddos so stinkin' much! I even get to see my kiddos in Montana!! I hear that all of the kiddos are excited but I don't know if they are nearly as excited as I am.. I can't wait to see the family.

Good Sunday :)

Today has been a good day. Yes, my dogs fought a lot today again and Marshall had a little seizure, but other than that, today has been a good day. I am so glad that I am in my branch. They take care of me in so many ways. There are times when the drama of being in a singles branch gets to me, as it does to most people. However, when it comes down to it, I love this little branch. I love the leaders. They are so good to take care of me. They make sure that I am okay in every aspect of my life. Then they literally take care of my physical needs. They take care of my spiritual needs. I love my leaders.

Today I also got something of such great importance to me. I was so excited. I AM so excited!! But, the best part is that as I showed someone who helped me get this thing, I jumped up and down. Yes, I JUMPED. If he judged, he didn't show it. In fact, he smiled and was excited for me. I am so glad that I had people to share that with today.

What an interesting little life I have. I wonder how this is all going to go. I wonder what role each of these people will play in my life.. Just thinking.

In the wee small hours of the morning

What is it about the early morning hours that cause you to think? I have been up for an hour or so, not by choice. In my nightly transition from bed to couch, back to bed, then couch, possibly bed after that, my dogs decided to have two large fights. One of those fights was dangerously close to my head. Now they are in their kennels in the bedroom and I am on the couch. Generally I can get back to sleep relatively easy but not this time. Instead, my mind has been flooded by thoughts. I might blame Facebook for that. I can't help thinking how different life has been the last two weeks. People say that sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. I'm not sure that I agree with that statement, especially in this case. There is no rhyme or reason that things are the way they are right now. It isn't that life is falling apart. I still love my job. I am financially okay for the month. I have a roof over my head and a car that runs. I have a family that loves me.

I have been thinking about my brother in New York a lot lately. I'm feeling a really big empty place in my heart. I don't know the best path to take. I would like to think the situation isn't irreparable. My brother hasn't spoken to me in over a year, despite efforts to contact him. I am afraid he is lost to me, possibly forever. I don't know that I realized how hard that has been. I miss him. I miss joking around with him. We were pretty close at one point. He is, of course, not to be confused with my brother in Montana or my brother in Utah. He is my oldest brother.

Anyway, something about the early morning hours causes me to reflect deeply. I suppose that the reflection is good in a way. It will be a catalyst for a change in behavior for the better.

My Musings..

Random musings that I had tonight... Be forewarned! They are random! Haha!

• I am a pretty happy person, too bad people only see me on my bad days.. For some reason those tend to be Sundays.. (thought this while walking the dogs around the "lake")
• I love my electric blanket. I maintain that it is cheaper than having the heater running.
• I hope my dogs don't catch colds because my apartment is cold.
• I really miss you and playing the guitar. Hopefully, this all gets figured out soon.
• There has been a lot that has happened in a year! Can't believe where I was last year compared to this year.
• I hope Michelle's birthday party is fun tomorrow.
• I can't wait until I can actually afford to get my office painted..
• I think I may have the most comfortable bed and couch in the world. They are heavenly!
• I wish I could start a fire.. (When I am successful, I will write a post dedicated to just building fires)
• I want to build a snowman, but I also want it to be 80 degrees outside. Can't have both at the same time... or can I?
• Mmmm... chocolate...
• I have the cutest dogs!
• I totally can't sleep with socks on but my toes are cold.
• Corn tortillas are gross, unless someone can prove me wrong with an amazing recipe. Glad they only cost 99 cents.

I think that covers the main points of the night. Just thought I'd put them on here for everyone to see. Haha!

EARTHQUAKE...

Last night I heard a noise and then my bed started rocking a bit. I thought to myself, I wonder if this in an earthquake. I told myself it was just the neighbors walking around. That actually happens often. Weird, I know. Plus, we don't have earthquakes HERE.

Nope. It was an earthquake whose epicenter was in Oklahoma. I thought I moved away from these when I moved out here.. Haha! It was a rockin' awesome time ;)

Bubba Gump

Tonight I pulled down a box that had clothes that used to be too small for me but I had still wanted to keep. I've lost a lot of weight using a combination of the starving law grad diet and actually watching what I eat-and I don't mean watching it as it goes from the plate into my mouth.. In this box I had put some old t-shirts. (don't worry, this has a point). In this box I found my .... BUBBA GUMP t-shirt!! (AND I can fit in it again!!)

Anyone who really knows me and my family will know that my brother Chris has called me Bubba for years. Not sure if he thought of me as not very smart when he started that or just making fun... Just kidding Chris. This name has turned into a nickname that only Chris calls me. He is my closet sibling in age, and I lived with him and his family for a year. I haven't been called Bubba much lately, but I will always be Bubba. I hope that When I am 75 and Chris is 80 we still remember enough that he will call me Bubba. I miss my brother. A lot. Sundays are the days I miss him and his family the most.

Sorry this was quite an unorganized post.

Rain boots!!

When I got ready for work today I knew that it was going to rain at some point. For some reason I felt that my fabric moccasins would be appropriate shoes. I was more focused on the comfort factor. By the time I got off work it was pouring!! Totally wished I had worn my boots.

Then I got home. I had to take the dogs for a walk. I put on jeans and my rain boots. They are yellow with polka dots.. Love them! I didn't realize how many puddles there were out there until I stepped in a really big one.. Then I stopped.. Looked around.. and splashed!! My pup Brennan looked at me with utter disgust. Well, that's how I interpreted it at least. Then he proceeded to try and get as far away from me as possible. I splashed in a lot of puddles.

I love being able to let loose and act like a kiddo some days :D